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Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Sleep won't come

I am depressed. I just want to cry. Why me?! Why did my baby have to die when so many others get to live and be healthy?! Why do so many horrible people get to have babies who grow to be sweet little children?! I want my baby!

I got his death certificate in the mail tonight. Is there anything worse? A babies death certificate.

4 comments:

eireann said...

i'm addicted to that tlc show jon & kate plus 8, and i remember watching one episode where they went back to the hospital where the 6 were born and then in the nicu for like 6 weeks. i remember kate said how insanely guilty they felt because they had 6 healthy babies that they took home, and some families had their only baby in the nicu and eventually went home empty-handed.

which is all to say, my heart breaks for you every day and i am sending you hugs.

Pacific Personal Training said...

You're allowed to cry. A lot. Often. I cry for you. Crying is cleansing. You're allowed (maybe even expected) to be depressed. What kind of mom would you be if you weren't?! Hugs...

Amy H said...

I'm so sorry, Jaimey...

Gina said...

I am so sorry for your loss. As we are battling infertility, I have screamed those same questions, over and over. I just wanted you to know you in in my thoughts daily.