I am sitting in my car at the dr's office 30 minutes early because I am cronicly early.
And I am sobbing my head off.
We are supposed to find out our 3rd babies gender in only minutes and all I can think of is Jonathan.
1 year ago I was finding out my baby boys gender and diagnosis/ death sentence all in one fal swoop. Part me can't help but feel like it's going to happen again. I'm going to walk in and lose another child in one apointment.
I know it's not logical, and I have tests and pictures to prove to myself and yet...
I have not been able to bond really with this baby. It's so hard to make myself feel like it's really going to happen this time. I have bought only 1 new baby outfit, and it was at Goodwill and last week.
Wish me luck. Time to face my fears.