From Jaimey to Mommy in 4.2 seconds

I just looked down a realized my leg hair is probably longer than my husbands. Hot. If you are in to that, that's cool but I am not. Er, never was.

Somewhere along the way, I went from Jaimey to Mommy. It happens to the best of us, in the blink of an eye and before you know it, only shreds of your former self remain. I SWORE it would never happen to me. I would never get lost in my marriage, never be the slave to my kids and my role as mommy and wife. It's one of the reasons I hyphenated my last name. Marriage was an addition to my life, not a hostile take over.

And yet, here I sit with mile-long-leg hair. My hair in a perpetual Mommy-tail and frumpy cozy clothes after the kids go to bed, folding mountains and mountains of laundry. The sea of tiny clothing, begging to be put on tiny squishy bodies. Bodies that came from mine that I would give my life for, that as a mommy you put on this earth and it's as if your entire soul is walking away from your body with a mind of it's own and free will. You will feel every hurt they feel, every achievement and in that time you teach them and hope that you taught them everything they need to know.

So while I swore I would never be that woman, the woman who loses herself in her family I realize that I have and I am. And man am I happy I did. I could not be happier about my choice to be a mom. I love my life and my kids, through every tear and laugh. With mile long leg hair and my perma Mommy-tail and mountains of laundry. I am good with it.

Mother's Day- slightly late

This is slightly late but Mother's Day was exactly what I wanted. Mostly. Minus the sleeping in, that's a bit hard to do when you have a baby who demands to be fed and no one else can feed him.

Zack had originally planned to go to the coast but since the Oregon coast is not exactly San Diego and usually requires a coat I asked if we could stay home and enjoy the sun that was supposed to be overhead. The other thing I had asked for was a hydrangea for the back yard.

We headed to Farmington Gardens and picked up this lovely larger hydrangea, some rainier strawberry plants, thyme, basil, rosemary and parsley. Then we went home and planted them all along with the tomato plants and hood strawberry plants I had bought the day before.

I generally don't have a green thumb so we'll see. I love the idea of growing a garden and if this takes and I don't kill them then maybe next year my garden will be a bit bigger. More on the "garden" later.

For dinner we went to one of our favorite little local restaurants, Reedville cafe. It's a fun little place that is a stone's throw away and always good.

Being a mommy was always what I wanted to do. I just knew I would not be complete until I had children. They have always been part of my life, from very young I was caring for my brother and from 13 I was babysitting for every family in my neighborhood. (some of those kids have kids of their own now!!!) Now that I am a mom my life feels like it's on the path it was always meant to take.

It has it's challenges and it's ups and downs but overall I wouldn't change a thing.
Thank you Grayson, Jonathan and Jaxon for choosing me to be your mommy.
And thank you Zack for choosing me to have a family with.
I love my boys!

the hand flowers they made me.

This is one gift that will stick around a while.

Yeah Me!

Yup, thats my butt. And guess what is on it? My 7 jeans that I have not been able to fit in since before Grayson! Woo hoo!

Okay, I gotta go take these off. I can't breathe. (hehe)

Happy Valentine's Day!

A weighty issue

I used to be that girl. One of the ones in high school who could eat anything and not gain an ounce. I maintained my 5'9", 100-120 (after boobs and hips) for all of high school. I was asked almost daily if I was anorexic. I was the one I would today glare at as she walked her super skinny self past me. (I'm rude I know)


For the record, No, not then nor have I ever had an eating disorder... unless eating too much crap is my disorder then well yup, I've got it.

Then I grew up and got married at 22. I gained a smidgen of weight but not enough to write home about. I was still that girl.

Fast forward 5 years and I did what any happily married woman does. I went and had a kid.
That will REALLY screw with your body. I am sure I don't need to tell you. I am sure many of you are nodding your head in agreement with me.

I gained 40 lbs while I was pregnant with Grayson. I remember going to one of my early appointments with my midwife her saying something to the effect of "what are you eating?! um, maybe you should cut out the juice and calorie filled drinks..." I gained 25 lbs by 20 weeks or so. I did taper off from there but I could tell she was a little worried she might have to roll me into the delivery room, like Violet from Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. I lost 20 lbs of "the Grayson weight" but 20 stuck like glue.

No longer was I that girl.

Jonathan's pregnancy I gained 10 lbs, but I was only pregnant 26.5 weeks. I blame stress. I lost it all immediately but those 20 previous still stuck.
Jaxon's pregnacy I gained 8 lbs.

And in the two weeks since I gave birth to Jaxon, I have lost all of the weight I gained with him. Not hard to do when the baby you gave birth to weighed more than you gained. :) But on top of that I have lost.... wait for it... another 15!

I have lost 23 lbs in the last 2 weeks. Best weight loss plan... working my a$ off literally at T and being pregnant. The scale goes backwards!

I have 5 lbs to go before I hit pre- GRAYSON weight. A weight I have not seen in 3+ years. And who knows if it will stay off. See comment on crap above... I like my sweets. A LOT.

But for right this minute, I feel like that girl again.

Grayson and his sand table

Being a mom means sometimes you gotta let loose and let the kid play outside in his jammies.